Bayazid; the watchmaker’s shop (where I often came to fix the mechanism of
my broken clock); the bottle seller’s shop (where I purchased the empty crystal
lamps and sherbet cups I embellished and the little bottles I decorated with
floral designs and secretly sold to the gentry) and the public baths (where my
feet went out of habit for a time because it was both inexpensive and empty)
were all respectfully standing at attention before me and my tearful eyes。
There was nobody in the vicinity of the ravaged and burned coffeehouse;
nor anyone at the house of beautiful Shekure and her new husband; who was
perhaps in the throes of death at this very moment。 I heartily wished them
nothing but happiness。 While roaming the streets in the days after I’d tainted
my hands with blood; all of Istanbul’s dogs; its shadowy trees; shuttered
windows; black chimneys; ghosts and hardworking; unhappy early risers
hurrying to their morning prayers always stared at
me with animosity; yet; from the moment I confessed my crimes and resolved
to abandon the only city I’d ever known; they all regarded me with friendship。
After passing the Bayazid Mosque; I watched the Golden Horn from a
promontory: The horizon was brightening; yet the water was still black。 Ever
so slowly bobbing in invisible waves; two fishermen’s rowboats; freight ships
with their sails furled and an abandoned galleon repeatedly insisted that I not
leave。 Were the tears flowing from my eyes caused by the needle? I told myself
to dream of the splendid life I would live in Hindustan off the splendid works
my talent would create!
I left the road; ran through two muddy gardens and took shelter beneath
an old stone house surrounded by greenery。 This was the house where I came
each Tuesday as an apprentice to get Master Osman and followed two paces
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behind him carrying his bag; portfolio; pen box and writing board on our way
to the workshop。 Nothing had changed here; except the plane trees in the yard
and along the street had grown so large that an aura of grandeur; power and
wealth hearkening back to the time of Sultan Süleyman had settled over the
house and street。
Since the road leading to the harbor was near; I succumbed to the Devil’s
temptation; and was overe by the excitement of seeing the arches of the
workshop building where I’d spent a quarter century。 This was how I ended
up tracing the path that I’d take as an apprentice following Master Osman:
down Archer’s Street which smelled dizzyingly of linden blossoms in the
spring; past the bakery where my master would buy