in Our Sultan’s workshop; no one could rival my mastery。 Through the work I
did privately; I earned nine hundred silver coins a month; which; naturally;
only makes all of this even harder to bear。
I was responsible for painting and embellishing books。 I illuminated the
edges of pages; coloring their borders with the most lifelike designs of leaves;
branches; roses; flowers and birds。 I painted scalloped Chinese…style clouds;
clusters of overlapping vines and forests of color that hid gazelles; galleys;
sultans; trees; palaces; horses and hunters。 In my youth; I would decorate a
plate; or the back of a mirror; or a chest; or at times; the ceiling of a mansion
or of a Bosphorus manor; or even; a wooden spoon。 In later years; however; I
only worked on manuscript pages because Our Sultan paid well for them。 I
can’t say it seems insignificant now。 You know the value of money even when
you’re dead。
After hearing the miracle of my voice; you might think; “Who cares what
you earned when you were alive? Tell us what you see。 Is there life after death?
Where’s your soul? What about Heaven and Hell? What’s death like? Are you
in pain?” You’re right; the living are extremely curious about the Afterlife。
Maybe you’ve heard the story of the man who was so driven by this curiosity
that he roamed among soldiers in battlefields。 He sought a man who’d died
and returned to life amid the wounded struggling for their lives in pools of
blood; a soldier who could tell him about the secrets of the Otherworld。 But
one of Tamerlane’s warriors; taking the seeker for the enemy; cleaved him in
half with a smooth stroke of his scimitar; causing him to conclude that in the
Hereafter man gets split in two。
Nonsense! Quite the opposite; I’d even say that souls divided in life merge
in the Hereafter。 Contrary to the claims of sinful infidels who’ve fallen under
the sway of the Devil; there is indeed another world; thank God; and the proof
is that I’m speaking to you from here。 I’ve died; but as you can plainly tell; I
haven’t ceased to be。 Granted; I must confess; I haven’t encountered the rivers
flowing beside the silver and gold kiosks of Heaven; the broad…leaved trees
bearing plump fruit and the beautiful virgins mentioned in the Glorious
Koran—though I do very well recall how often and enthusiastically I made
pictures of those wide…eyed houris described in the chapter “That Which Is
ing。” Nor is there a trace of those rivers of milk; wine; fresh water and
honey described with such flourish; not in the Koran; but by visionary
dreamers like Ibn Arabi。 But I have no intention of tempting the faith of those
who live rightfully through their hopes and visions of the Otherworld; so let
me declare that all I’ve seen relates specifically to my own very personal
circumstances。 Any believer with even a little knowledge of life after death
would know that a malcontent in my state would be hard…pressed to see the