most talented and most proficient among the masters of the workshop; not
only by Master Osman; but by Our Sultan as well; I began to be so terrified of
the envy of the others that I tried; if only at times; to go where they went; to
befriend them and to resemble them so they wouldn’t turn on me in a
sudden fit of vengeance。 Do you understand? And since they’ve begun labeling
me an ”Erzurumi;“ I’ve been going to that den of vile unbelievers so others
might discount this rumor。”
“Master Osman said you often acted as if apologizing for your talent and
proficiency。”
“What else did he say about me?”
“That you’d paint absurd; minute pictures on grains of rice and fingernails
so that others would be convinced you’d forsaken life for art。 He said you were
always trying to please others because you were embarrassed by the great gifts
Allah had bestowed upon you。”
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“Master Osman is on Bihzad’s level;” I said with sincerity。 “What else?”
“He listed your faults without the slightest hesitation;” said the wretch。
“Let’s hear my faults then。”
“He said that despite your prodigious talent; you painted not for the love of
art but to ingratiate yourself。 Supposedly; what most motivated you while
painting was imagining the pleasure an observer would feel; whereas; you
should’ve painted for the pleasure of painting itself。”
It singed my heart that Master Osman so brazenly revealed what he
thought about me to a man of such diminished spirit; one who devoted his
life; not to art; but to being a clerk; writing letters and hollow flattery。 Black
continued:
“The great masters of old; Master Osman claimed; would never renounce
the styles and methods they cultivated through self…sacrifice to art just for the
sake of a new shah’s authority; the whims of a new prince or the tastes of a
new age; thus; to avoid being forced to alter their styles and methods; they’d
heroically blind themselves。 Meanwhile; you’ve enthusiastically and
dishonorably imitated the European masters for the pages of my Enishte’s
book; with the excuse that it’s the will of Our Sultan。”
“The great Head Illuminator Master Osman most certainly meant no evil by
this;” I said。 “Allow me to put some linden tea on the boil for you; my dear
guest。”
I passed into the adjoining room。 My beloved tossed over my head the
nightgown of Chinese silk she was wearing; which she’d purchased from
Esther the clothier; then