Rather than be offended by him; I had the urge to tease him。 Didn’t Black’s
belief in the disgraceful rumors about me simply prove he was also jealous of
me? He held the dagger without much confidence。
My house was opposite the direction we were heading along the road
leading away from the coffeehouse。 We tacked right and left down
neighborhood streets and passed through empty gardens that bore the
depressing scent of damp and lonely trees as we traced a wide arc back toward
my house。 We’d covered more than half the route; when Black stopped and
said:
“For two days; Master Osman and I examined the masterpieces of the
legendary masters in the Treasury。”
Much later; nearly screaming; I said; “After a certain age; even if a painter
shares a worktable with Bihzad; what he sees may please his eyes and bring
contentment and excitement to his soul; but it won’t enhance his talent;
because one paints with the hand; not the eyes; and the hand at my age; let
alone at Master Osman’s; does not easily learn new things。”
Assured my beautiful wife was waiting for me; I spoke at the top of my
voice to let her know I wasn’t alone so she might hide herself from Black—not
that I took this pathetic dagger…wielding fool seriously。
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We passed through the courtyard gate; and I thought I saw the light of a
lamp moving in the house; but thank God all was in darkness now。 It was such
a merciless rape of my privacy for this knife…wielding beast to force his way
into my heavenly home; where I spent my days; indeed all my time; seeking
out and painting Allah’s memories until my eyes tired—whereupon I’d make
love to my beloved; the most beautiful woman in the world—that I swore to
take revenge upon him。
Lowering the lamp; he examined my papers; a page I was in the midst of
pleting—condemned prisoners pleading to the Sultan to be relieved of
their chains of debt and receiving His benevolence—my paints; my worktables;
my knives; my reed…cutting boards; my brushes; everything around my writing
table; my papers again; my burnishing stones; my penknives and the spaces
between my pen and paper boxes; he looked in cabis; chests; beneath
cushions; at one of my paper scissors; and beneath a soft red cushion and a
carpet before going back; bringing the lamp closer and closer to each object
and examining the same places once again。 As he said when he first drew his
weapon; he wouldn’t search my entire house; only my atelier。 Indeed; couldn’t
I conceal my wife—the only thing I wanted to hide—in the room from which
she was now spying on us?
“There’s a final picture that belonged to the book my Enishte was having