迪文小说

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look　past　them。　What　was　behind　them？　What　was

he　thinking？　Was　he　really　sorry？　Or　was　he　just　feeling　bad　about　the　things　hed　said？

It　was　like　looking　into　the　sun；　though；　and　I　had　to　turn　away。

I　couldnt　tell　you　what　we　talked　about　after　that；　except　that　he　was　nice　to　me　and　he　made

me　laugh。　And　after　he　left；　I　shut　off　the　water　and

went　inside　feeling　very；　very　strange。

The　rest　of　the　evening　I　bounced　back　and　forth　between　upset　and　uneasy。　The　worst　part

being；　I　couldnt　really　put　my　finger　on　what　exactly　I

was　upset　or　uneasy　about。　Of　course　it　was　Bryce；　but　why　wasnt　I　just　mad？　Hed　been

such　a　…　scoundrel。　Or　happy？　Why　wasnt　I　just　happy？

Hed　e　over　to　our　house。　Hed　stood　on　our　driveway。　Hed　said　nice　things。　Wed

laughed。

But　I　wasnt　mad　or　happy。　And　as　I　lay　in　bed　trying　to　read；　I　realized　that　upset　had　been

overshadowed　by　uneasy。　I　felt　as　though　someone

was　watching　me。　I　got　so　spooked　I　even　got　up　and　checked　out　the　window　and　in　the

closet　and　under　the　bed；　but　still　the　feeling　didnt　go

away。

It　took　me　until　nearly　midnight　to　understand　what　it　was。

It　was　me。　Watching　me。

Looming　Large　and　Smelly

Sunday　I　woke　up　feeling　like　Id　been　sick　with　the　flu。　Like　Id　had　one　of　those　bad；

convoluted；　unexplainable　fever　dreams。

And　what　Ive　figured　out　about　bad；　convoluted；　unexplainable　dreams　of　any　kind　is　that

youve　just　got　to　shake　them　off。　Try　to　forget　that　they

ever　happened。

I　shook　it　off；　all　right；　and　got　out　of　bed　early　cause　I　had　eaten　almost　nothing　the　night

before　and　I　was　starving！　But　as　I　was　trucking　into　the

kitchen；　I　glanced　into　the　family　room　and　noticed　that　my　dad　was　sacked　out　on　the　couch。

This　was　not　good。　This　was　a　sign　of　battles　still　in　progress；　and　it　made　me　feel　like　an

invader　in　my　own　territory。

He　rolled　over　and　kind　of　groaned；　then　curled　up　tighter　under　his　skinny　little　quilt　and

muttered　some　pretty　unfriendly…sounding　stuff　into　his

pillow。

I　beat　it　into　the　kitchen　and　poured　myself　a　killer　bowl　of　corn　flakes。　And　I　was　about　to

drown　it　in　milk　when　my　mother　es　waltzing　in　and