Butterfly; Olive and Stork; not only for the sake of conversation; but to better
understand these living legends who were contemporaries of mine。
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I did not; however; go to the master illuminators’ houses immediately。 I
met with Esther near the Jewish quarter at a new bazaar that had an elevated
view of the confluence of the Golden Horn and the Bosphorus。 Esther was all
atwitter in the pink dress she was forced to wear as a Jew; with her large and
lively body; her mouth which never stopped moving; and her eyebrows and
eyes which twitched madly and signaled to me; indeed; this is how she was
among the shopping slave women; the women wearing the faded and loose
caftans of poor neighborhoods and among the crowds that had lost
themselves amid carrots; quinces and small bundles of onions and turnips。
She stuffed the letter I gave her into her shalwar pants with an adept and
mysterious gesture; as if the whole market were spying upon us。 She told me
that Shekure was thinking of me。 She took her baksheesh and when I said;
“Please; make haste and deliver it straightaway;” she indicated that she still
had quite a lot of work to do by gesturing toward her bundle and said that she
only could deliver the letter to Shekure toward midday。 I asked her to tell
Shekure that I’d gone to pay visits to the three young and renowned master
miniaturists。
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I AM CALLED “BUTTERFLY”
The midday prayers had yet to be called。 A knock at the door: I opened it to
find Black Effendi; who was among us for a while during our apprenticeships。
We embraced and kissed on the cheeks。 I was wondering whether he’d
brought some word from his Enishte; when he said that he wanted to look at
the pages I’d been illustrating and at my paintings; that he’d called in
friendship; and was going to direct a question to me in the name of Our
Sultan。 “Very well;” I said; “ to answer?”
He told me。 Very well; then!
Style and Signature
“As long as the number of worthless artists motivated by money and fame
instead of the pleasure of seeing and a belief in their craft increases;” I said;
“we will continue to witness much more vulgarity and greed akin to this
preoccupation with ”style‘ and “signature。”“ I made this introduction because
this was the way it is done; not because I believed what I said。 True ability and
talent couldn’t be corrupted even by the love of gold or fame。 Furthermore; if
truth be told; money and fame are the inalienable rights of the talented; as in
my case; and only inspire us to greater feats。 But if I were to say this openly;