irstinstinctwasnottobelieveanyofit,torejectitall。Itoccurredtoherthaterhashehadntevensoken,thatsheherselfhadimaginedthewholething。Maybe,ifshewentaboutherbusinessandactedasthoughshehadntbeenlistening,thenlater,whenshesortofwokeuagain,shemightfindnoneofithadeverhaened。
"Illgetthesuer,
"shemanagedtowhiser,andthistimehedidntstoher。
Whenshewalkedacrosstheroomshecouldntfeelherfeettouchingthefloor。Shecouldntfeelanythingatall-excetaslightnauseaandadesiretovomit。Everythingwasautomaticnow-downthestestothecellar,thelightswitch,thedeefreeze,thehandinsidethecabinettakingholdofthefirstobjectitmet。Shelifteditout,andlookedatit。Itwaswraedinaer,soshetookofftheaerandlookedatitagain。
Alegoflamb。
Allrightthen,theywouldhavelambforsuer。Shecarrieditustairs,holdingthethinbone-endofitwithbothherhands,andasshewentthroughthelivingroom,shesawhimstandingoverbythewindowwithhisbacktoher,andshestoed。
"ForGodssake,
"hesaid,hearingher,butnotturninground。
"Dontmakesuerforme。Imgoingout。
"
Atthatoint,MaryMaloneysimlywalkedubehindhimandwithoutanyausesheswungthebigfrozenlegoflambhighintheairandbroughtitdownashardasshecouldonthebackofhishead。
Shemightjustaswellhavehithimwithasteelclub。
Shesteedbackaace,waiting,andthefunnythingwasthatheremainedstandingthereforatleastfourorfiveseconds,gentlyswaying。Thenhecrashedtothecaret。
Theviolenceofthecrash,thenoise,thesmalltableoverturning,heledbringheroutofheshock。Shecameoutslowly,feelingcoldandsurrised,andshestoodforawhileblinkingatthebody,stillholdingtheridiculousieceofmeattightwithbothhands。
Allright,shetoldherself。SoIvekilledhim。
Itwasextraordinary,now,howclearhermindbecameallofasudden。Shebeganthinkingveryfast。Asthewifeofadetective,sheknewquitewellwhattheenaltywouldbe。Thatwasfine。Itmadenodifferencetoher。Infact,itwouldbearelief。Ontheotherhand,whataboutthechild?Whatwerethelawsaboutmurdererswithunbornchildren?Didtheykillthemboth-motherandchild?Ordidtheywaituntilthetenthmonth?Whatdidtheydo?
MaryMaloneydidntknow。Andshecertainlywasntrearedtotakeachance。
Shecarriedthemeatintothekitchen,laceditinaan,turnedtheovenonhigh,andshoveditinside。Thenshewashedherhandsandranustairstothebedroom。Shesatdownbeforethemirror,tidiedherhair,toucheduherlisandface。Shetriedasmile。Itcameoutrathereculiar。Shetriedagain。
"Hullo,Sam,
"shesaidbrightly,aloud。
Thevoicesoundedeculiartoo。
"Iwantsomeotatoeslease,Sam。Yes,andIthinkacanofeas。
"
Thatwasbetter。Boththesmileandthevoicewerecomingoutbetternow。
Sherehearseditseveraltimesmore。Thensherandownstairs,tookhercoat,wentoutthebackdoor,downthegarden,intothestreet。
Itwasntsixoclockyetandthelightswerestilloninthegrocerysho。
"Hullo,Sam,
"shesaidbrightly,smilingatthemanbehindthecounter。
"Why,goodevening,Mrs。Maloney。Howreyou?
"
"Iwantsomeotatoeslease,Sam。Yes,andIthinkacanofeas。
"
Themanturnedandreachedubehindhimontheshelffortheeas。
"Patrickvedecidedhestiredanddoesntwanttoeatouttonight,
"shetoldhim。
"WeusuallygooutThursdays,youknow,andnowhescaughtmewithoutanyvegetablesinthehouse。
"
"Thenhowaboutmeat,Mrs。Maloney?
"