pictures; the amateurish shadows falling across rocks and tens of thousands of
cypress; plane and pomegranate trees whose leaves were drawn one after
another with the patience of Job; the palaces—and their hundreds of
thousands of bricks—which were modeled on palaces from the time of
Tamerlane or Shah Tahmasp but acpanied stories from much earlier eras;
the tens of thousands of melancholy princes listening to music played by
beautiful women and boys sitting on magnificent carpets in fields of flowers
and beneath flowering trees; the extraordinary pictures of ceramics and
carpets that owe their perfection to the thousands of apprentice illustrators
from Samarkand to Islambol beaten to the point of tears over the last one
hundred fifty years; the sublime gardens and the soaring black kites that you
still depict with your old enthusiasm; your astounding scenes of death and
war; your graceful hunting sultans; and with the same finesse; your startled
fleeing gazelles; your dying shahs; your prisoners of war; your infidel galleons
and your rival cities; your shiny dark nights that glimmer as if night itself had
flowed from your pen; your stars; your ghostlike cypresses; your red…tinted
pictures of love and death; yours and all the rest; all of it will vanish…”
Raising the inkpot; he struck me on the head with all his strength。
I tottered forward under the force of the blow。 I felt a horrible pain that I
could never even hope to describe。 The entire world was wrapped in my pain
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and faded to yellow。 A large portion of my mind assumed that this attack was
intentional; yet; along with the blow—or perhaps because of it—another;
faltering part of my mind; in a sad show of goodwill; wanted to say to the
madman who aspired to be my murderer: “Have mercy; you’ve attacked me in
error。”
He raised the inkpot again and brought it down upon my head。
This time; even the faltering part of my mind understood that this was no
mistake; but madness and wrath that might very well end in my death。 I was
so terrified by this state of affairs that I began to raise my voice; howling with
all my strength and suffering。 The color of this howl would be verdigris; and in
the blackness of evening on the empty streets; no one would be able to hear its
hue; I knew I was all alone。
He was startled by my wail and hesitated。 We momentarily came eye to
eye。 I could tell from his pupils that; despite his horror and embarrassment;
he’d resigned himself to what he was doing。 He was no longer the master