heard that you haven’t written even a single line of my father’s book。 Don’t get
your hopes up without first pleting that manuscript。
Letter in hand; he glared accusingly into my eyes; as if all this was my fault。
I’m not fond of these silences in this house。
“There’s no longer any word of her being married; of her husband
returning from the front;” he said。 “Why?”
“How should I know why?” I said。 “I’m not the one who writes the letters。”
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“Sometimes I wonder even about that;” he said; handing back the letter
along with fifteen silver。
“Some men grow stingier the more they earn。 You’re not that way;” I said。
There was such an enchanting; intelligent side to this man that despite all
his dark and evil traits; one could see why Shekure would still accept his letters。
“What is this book of Shekure’s father?”
“You know! Our Sultan is funding the whole project they say。”
“Miniaturists are murdering each other over the pictures in that book;” he
said。 “Is it for the money or—God forbid—because the book desecrates our
religion? They say one glance at its pages is enough to bring on blindness。”
He said all this; smiling in such a way that I knew I shouldn’t take any of it
seriously。 Even if it were a matter to take to heart; at the very least; there was
nothing for him to take seriously about me taking the matter seriously。 Like
many of the men who depended on my services as a letter courier and
mediator; Hasan lashed out at me when his pride was hurt。 I; as part of my
job; pretended to be upset to hearten him。 Maidens; on the contrary; hugged
me and cried when their feelings were hurt。
“You’re an intelligent woman;” said Hasan in order to soothe my pride;
which he believed he’d injured。 “Deliver this posthaste。 I’m curious about that
fool’s response。”
For a moment; I felt like saying; “Black is not so foolish。” In such situations;
making rival suitors jealous of each other will earn Esther the matchmaker
more money。 But I was afraid he’d have a sudden tantrum。
“You know the Tatar beggar at the end of the street?” I said。 “He’s very
vulgar; that one。”