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me; under what arrangement and conditions will you see to our safety? This is
what we have to resolve。”
He made an overture to speak; but I easily silenced him with a look—as
though this were something I’d done countless times before。
“In the eyes of the judge; it is my husband and his family who succeed my
father as my guardians。 This was the case even before his death; for according
to the judge my husband is still alive。 It was only because Hasan tried to take
advantage of me during his older brother’s absence; a failed assault that
embarrassed my father…in…law; that I was allowed to return to my father’s
home though not officially a widow。 But now that my father is dead and I am
without even a brother; there is no question that my only possible guardians
are my husband’s brother and my father…in…law。 They’ve already been
scheming to have me returned to their home; coercing my father; and
threatening me。 Once they hear my father is dead; they won’t hesitate to take
official action。 My only hope to prevent this is to conceal my father’s death。
Perhaps in vain; for they may be the ones behind the crime。”
At that very moment; a thin beam of light gracefully filtered through the
broken shutters and fell between Black and me; illuminating the ancient dust
inside the room。
“This isn’t the only reason I’m hiding my father’s death;” I said; fixing my
gaze into Black’s eyes; in which I was gladdened to see attentiveness more than
love。 “I’m also afraid of being unable to prove my whereabouts at the time of
my father’s murder。 Though she’s a slave and her word might be discounted;
I’m afraid that Hayriye is involved in these machinations; if not against me;
then against my father’s book。 And as long as I remain without a protector;
the announcement of my father’s murder; while initially simplifying matters
at home; might well; solely for the reasons I’ve enumerated; cause me great
misfortune at her hand; for instance; what if Hayriye is aware that my father
didn’t want me to marry you?”
“Your father didn’t want you to marry me?” asked Black。
“No; he didn’t; he was worried that you’d take me away from him。 Since
there’s no longer any danger of you doing such evil to him; let’s assume my
dear unfortunate father has no further objection。 Do you have any?”
“None at all; my darling。”
“Fin